a child, a sister not yet four
so happy and full of life with giggles and a smile.

a young adult trapped in a adult body  with a 13 year old heart.

stringing her hair in circles around her finger with a stuffy nose she contemplates suicide.

the pain is unimaginable.

it is as a million needles in her heart just sticking there and never leaving.

a child, a sister running into the room with a hug and kiss who says"i love you
brittney"has to make you think what will that child say when i am gone.

will they notice i am gone.

do they really love me.

will they still love me if when they grow older.

for the first time she starts to reason like an adult and consider another being.